A Son's Violent Death; A Father's Undying Love

By John W. Fountain

Rodney White-El with son Khalil and
the child's grandmother. (Photo: Provided)
Once upon a time, a father fell in love with a son. They united in love and spirit even before that late-autumn day nearly 19 years ago when the precious newborn boy squinted in the bright light, fresh from his mother’s womb as his father beamed with delight tinged with fear over the responsibility of raising the infant he cradled in his arms. Particularly in a world that can be cold, cruel and deadly to brown-skinned boys born on the other side of the tracks. 

But a good father can be a son’s compass. Even if fatherhood arrives devoid of a handbook. Even if the elements that can steal a son’s life hover sometimes like storm clouds even on some sunny days.

And a son can be the light that inspires a father to be a better man. That compels a man to be a better father than his father. To provide for, produce and protect a son with endless selfless devotion. To carry him in life, and also in death. And perhaps beyond. 

"I looked at him as my angel..."

Rodney White-EL and son Khalil
during happier times. (Photo Provided)
This is Rodney and Khalil’s story.

Rodney White-EL wanted to give his son a strong name, one with purpose and power. He chose to name him after one of the elders who was “like a father” to him at the Nation of Islam, where he was a member at the time. 

He chose “Khalil”—meaning friend of Allah. He chose “Tariq” as his middle name—meaning “night star.” The “EL” signifies their Moorish American heritage and, for the father, his own transformation, both naturally and spiritually, through his Islamic faith.  

White-EL spoke his son’s name to him while he was yet in his mother Regina Howard’s womb. Sometimes he moved his lips close to her belly while rubbing cocoa butter so that their unborn son might feel his voice’s vibrations. 

“Khalil!” he called to him as his son responded with a kick the father could feel while placing his hand on her stomach.

“I can’t wait to meet you, you a little feisty dude.”

 On Nov. 9, 2003, Khalil entered their world. He didn’t scream, didn’t really cry, only squinted his eyes--when his father finally held him--smiled. 

A banner in memory of Khalil stands
inside St. Sabina during services
(Photo: John W. Fountain
“I didn’t know where to start, what to do. I was nervous, man. …I looked at him as my angel. I would never want him to experience what I experienced. I know how hard it was for me…’

By White-EL’s account, his own father was a gangster. A man who moved from New Orleans to Chicago and settled on the West Side. He ran policy and owned a liquor store.

White-EL’s mother was a devout Christian who kept her children in church on Sundays. It was kind of like a heaven and hell situation. As a youngster, White-EL drank his first “forty” (ounce bottle of malt liquor) with his father. White-El says he ended up battling alcoholism, being ensnared by the streets. He didn’t want that for his son.

He changed his life, motivated by his faith in Allah. By the example of good men like Supreme Grand Sheik E. Braswell Bey of the Moorish Science Temple of America. And by his love for Khalil. 

He quit the streets. Quit drinking and smoking. Devoted himself to work and fatherhood. He doted on Khalil, who was always full of life and energy, always running, jumping, playful and smart beyond his years. He took his son everywhere he went. Gave him his first haircut and every other haircut over 18 years.

Rodney White-EL (on left) stands at the podium
speaking during services for his son
(Photo: John W. Fountain)
On Thursday afternoon, as one of the final loving acts for his son, White-EL arrived at a South Side mortuary to line up his son’s hair hours before a scheduled funeral visitation. Instead he helped adorn his son’s head with a red fez, symbolizing his royal prince-hood as a Moorish American. 

Khalil was fatally gunned down on Aug. 23, in a South Side alley, after starting a new job. No one has been charged.

On Friday morning, hundreds of mourners at the Faith Community of St. Sabina filed past a black open casket adorned with red and white carnations, roses and peace lilies and anchored by a banner with Khalil smiling in life amid a somber song with piano and flute. 

“Of course it hurts, of course we are angry, and of course we are determined to get justice for Khalil,” White-EL told mourners. “If I didn’t have my faith, I would literally lose my mind.”

Standing on the church’s stone steps, the crowd of mourners shouted, “Khalil!” over and over and over again. The father, brokenhearted but smiling widely, released a dove into the cloud-filled blue sky. A symbol that his son and their love still lives.

#JusticeForJelaniDay

Mourners gathered at the Faith Community of St. Sabina for services for Khalil White-EL
(Photos: John W. Fountain)

Moments after being released by the family in Khalil's honor, doves take to the sky